I hope everyone had a happy and safe New Year!
I was slightly pathetic last night and didn’t make it until midnight (unless you count temporarily waking up when the fireworks in Central Park were really loud). I didn’t really end the year with a “bang,” and admittedly spent the last month or so of 2012 in somewhat of a depressed and anxious haze both personally and professionally. I know I’m being facetious here, but I haven’t been in that bad of a funk in a long time. If I’m being honest I’m still not feeling totally normal. But, it’s a new year, and although cliche, I’d like to start it out “right” with a positive mindset.
and a delicious breakfast
After all, if everything works out 2013 will be the first year in which I get to do what I love and get paid for it. I’ll finally be able to write “MS, RD” at the end of my name, explore what I’m passionate about and surround myself with like-minded colleagues. For the first time, I’ll be helping people every day – in big ways or small – and it’s all I’ve ever wanted to do. I can’t get down on myself because I don’t know exactly what I’ll be doing where and when immediately right now.
I don’t believe in sitting back and letting things happen or relying on fate. I’ve gotten pretty far in life all on my own by making things happen – I went to Boston for college and never looked back, packed up everything I owned and moved to New York in 2006 without knowing a soul because I was unhappy in Boston and always wanted to live in NYC, went back to school at the age of 25 to study nutrition part-time while working full time, and finally quit my job at a PR agency last January and took out massive student loans to start my year-long dietetic internship full time.
so much studying
I don’t come from a privileged upbringing and have never had anything handed to me – I got a scholarship to college, took my first “real” vacation only three years ago and have supported myself for as long as I can remember. Sometimes I wish this were different because things would have been so much easier (especially financially). But then again, I don’t think I would have developed the same drive or appreciation for what I’ve managed to accomplish if things were simply given to me or I just expected them.
I guess my point to this endless rambling is that I think it’s ok to feel anxious and scared about not knowing where exactly my future is going (and how the bills will be paid). But there comes a time (i.e., now), when I need to stop getting down on myself and channel more positive energy. Because when it all comes down to it, I have the power within me to make things happen just like I always have. And that makes me pretty excited for 2013
What about you? What will you make happen this year?